Confused...

I'm in a relationship with one person and in love with another person who is engaged to another woman but still calls me.

=/

Will I ever get this love thing right?

Torture

I tortured myself today by googling my ex and looking at pics of him with his new chick.  She is beautiful (I am beautiful) but damn her clothes are amaaaazing!  I mean, I am a stylist and I know clothes and her gear is up to par.  Mine--not so much.  Don't get me wrong, I dress fly and have some nice bags and shoes; some Chloe, some Gucci, some Louboutin, some Giuseppes... But she has a Birken bag?!  Her clothes are on POINT!  But she is all over the gossip sites, having dated more than one celeb so I guess she's racked up along the way.  Damn, what I did notice is he bought her the same bracelet he bought me--wow.  I guess I shouldn't be surprised, right?  I do love to torture myself.